Kamis, 10 Mei 2012

Day by Day

I'm tired.
I'm tired all the time.
Life has been so busy lately that I feel like I'm just living in a constant state of tiredness.
And bothered with my business all day long.

Just moving along to the next thing.
Not being present at any of it.
I don't like living/feeling like this.
I feel my heart racing right now just typing these words.
I feel the pressure to keep moving, but the pull to just stop and rest.

I need to rest, more sleep is better.
I need to make some room in my life to breath and realease my routines.
I've needed to step away for awhile to recoup and try to get some energy back.
It's not studying.

It's almost June and I am missing it.
I know this is a totally weird and pointless post, but I have to say something...even if it's really nothing.
I feel disconnected.
I need to find a way to connect to life. To myself. To my soul.
Right now I feel almost numb.
I hate it.
I'm not depressed...just not here.

Life is so busy I can't.
I'm not unhappy by any means.
I just don't feel right.
Life has been really good and really full.
I just feel like something's missing.
Sleep. Quiet. Rest.
I'm going crazy listening to my head all the time.

I'm just exhausted.
By the time I get home at night I'm so tired.
I don't want to talk to anyone.
I don't want to listen to anyone.
I snap easily.
I'm grumpy.
I catch myself being this way.
I'm hoping just hitting post and stopping rambling will help me.

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